dance hits 2003

It makes me angry
the way you flood my mind.
tried to wash you out.
remembering.
your eyes, your voice,
your smell, your laugh.
all i can think about is you.
what if?
what if you had been different?
what if you had been more like me?
would it have mattered?
i miss you,
iapos;ll admit it.
that i loved you,
i cannot.
it doesnapos;t make sense,
but it makes me angry.
itapos;s cliche and ridiculous.
overrated and annoying.
but my breathing slows
and my heart gets heavy.
thinking of you is like
treading water.
staying strong
keeps my heart and head
from going under.
giving in means
drowning in you
and everything you left me
with(out).

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