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Note. I know people think i only care about myself and what i want etc...but i dunno, i miss my dad, i feel bad, that i couldnt have lunch with him today on his day off ,and spend tha day with him, just driving around, and going to shit shops, and stuff but i wanted to see my mums mate jenny...
i think hes lonely, and i know how that feels. I think he feels hes failed at life and i know that feels bad too. I think we would have a lot in common, if only we could open up to each other. But we are both shit at that an it will never happen.

but i love my dad. Despite everything. Nothing is his fault at all.

i wish i was a better communicator.
want to make someones life better.

need to text jay and tell him im not coping with not seeing him.


because im not. And i dont get why he cant stay at mine. And i dont get why he cant see me after work. He knows iapos;ll cook for him, he knows iapos;ll let him sleep, he knows he can have a bath and a shave....so i dont get wtf is wrong with my house ?????
both my parents speak to him and make an effort with him, and take an interest [more than his do to me] so its clearly not my rents that he feels intimidated by or w/e ?

summats got to change. Think he dont want me
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